Chillin' with Elijah under the broom tree...

Elijah was scared, he had lost all hope, he no longer believed in himself.

Ironically, this was the same man that not so long ago challenged the prophets of Baal and Asherah to a contest, to see whose god is the true god. Obviously, Yahweh proved Himself the true God, and Elijah commanded the people to put all the prophets of Baal and Asherah to the sword. And now just because of one woman, he was running away for his life.

As he reached a broom tree, in the dessert, he took rest.

Our tutor, Archdeacon Moses stopped right there,

" I like this part.." He said.

" In everything that we do, sometimes we might get tired, or overwhelmed by circumstances, or you might just need to take a short break... Elijah took his under the broom tree... Where is your broom tree ? "

This threw me aback for a while, just the 2 weeks ago, I was planning for my own broom tree, this of course was Melaka. Melaka was not exactly the perfect broom tree for me, I can't keep going to Melaka every time I need to unwind or run away from it all. Running away is not exactly the perfect term as well, of course I explained it along the lines of "blowing off steam". Positive as I may try to put it, it was a rather difficult time for me, and running away just felt like the best option. Once again , running away is a bad sounding word, it's hardly a run away when one takes leave for it, hahaha...

But, it was the reason of the escape which mattered. No point in me stating the exact reason now. Simply put, I was searching.

Searching for answers, searching for something that could put my mind at ease, looking to God for answers, hoping that He may have something new for me, a new understanding, a new explanation, a new revelation perhaps, anything, anything that can put me at ease.

Elijah was in the same situation as well. he went to Mount Horeb ( Better known as Mount Sinai ), looking for answers. There were fire, earthquake, and great wind, all parallels to the days of Moses, when Moses met God on the mountain. But God was not in the earthquake, nor was He in the fire, or even the wind. Then God called Elijah in a gentle whisper. God was in the gentle whisper.

It literally meant "crushed silence". Of which was so significant, because the silence indicated one sure thing, that God had no other revelation for him, but the one he had already given.

At that moment, I realised my mistake. I was looking for a means to escape from reality, maybe just for a while, but God's work still needed to be done, life goes on, and His commission still stands. There is nothing new, only what He has given. I was looking for new frills, and in doing so, I neglected God's work, or in a better term, put light of the seriousness of the task that He had given me.

I was blessed to be invited to Danny's cell group in KK on Wednesday, his cell group leader, Annabelle , I think that's how you spell he name lah.. haha.. asked the oh so expected question.

" What are your new year's resolutions ? "

Answer remains the same,

" God has blessed me through and through in 2010, but lately, I've concentrated more on His blessing than He himself. And in doing so, I find myself further away from His grace and even His understanding. Consequences to which I have no one else to blame but myself. Not this year. "

Lord, I can only promise my best to You, which is still flawed in so many ways. But through Your grace, I pray that you be merciful and put me back on the path to which you have prepared for me. Amen.

Therefore, new year resolutions:

1 Find my "broom tree" ( realistic one )
2 Thank God for His blessings and spend more time with Him than his blessing.
3. Realistically lose more weight, and gain muscle..muahahaha...
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More to come...

Till next time, God bless guys...