Tentación...

The beginning of Lent... Oh yea...

Tis the time for Christians to put aside more time for God, contemplating, meditating, reading and understanding the word of God. In short, it is a time for us to spend more time with God, and be more fervent in our walk with Him.

Like the title says, life is full of temptation...

I find myself in such difficult positions some time... Situations in which I really don't know what to do. Logically, there is always a solution for any problems. But I am a passionate man, all artists are.. haha... and with that passion, we tend to wear our hearts on our sleeves. And it is with that heart on my sleeve that I based my decisions upon, most of the time.

I have decided to give up... No, don't get me wrong... this isn't one of them suicide notes... I am not giving up on life, haha.. not mine to give up bah... hahaha.. But I have to decided to just step back and well, give up for now... seriously running out of vocabs man....haha...

For now, there are a lot of things in which I need to focus on, my-future-depends-on-it kinda things. My studies for instance, I have not been a good student so far, Bishop, if you're reading this, sorry ah... Be back on track ASAP...

Then I have some of the ministries given to me. Like Welcome Team and Faith Station, 2 very important ministries mind you, and I'd like to know I will do my best in it, as much as I can, after all, the task at hand is given based on our capabilities, but it's up to us to initiate and run it. Lately I have been neglecting these ministries quite a bit, due to some acceptable and some illogical personal reasons. But reasons are alasans, still the same thing..haha... And God's ministries waits for no man, therefore personal issues must be put aside to be dealt with, or ministries can be handed over to someone more suited for it. I for one, am not giving up on this yet.

Thirdly, Faith Music. This year I have finally decided to join Faith Music. Joined last year but did practically nothing.. hahaha... Guitar is still collecting dust at home and until I can save up enough money to fix the machine head and the neck or buy a new guitar, guitar classes are just a no no for me , for now... Therefore, only other option is vocal class... Yeap, you heard me, Vocal Class. Finally joined it, and I am quite glad I get to learn a bit about singing techniques and voice control and so on... Hopefully will learn more on the basics, which my trainer sudah promise... haha... For now, kena surih nyanyi, lantak saja, harap harap tidak out cukuplah... haha.

So there you go, and of course, among The Big 3 ( reasons) of course, there are always smaller ones here and there, like driving license and drama classes and the ever so important hanging out and catching up with friends.

Of course, one very important factor is, that I realise I have not been as close to God as I used to be. Sure, head knowledge is still there, perhaps even more, but I have not been walking with God for awhile. You know how it is... let me explain how...

Women, married of course , always complain about this, and I hope my future wife won't have to.

Before they get married, the husband (then boyfriend), would hold her hand, walk side by side, perhaps even a small hug around the waist, wherever they go, she'd be a little slow, and he'd wait for her, walking to the rhythm of her foot steps. Time slows down, and it feels like it's only the two of them on that quiet Chow Kit road...

But fast forward 30 years later, the wife is way behind, dragging her groceries in one hand, and balancing her purse in the other, whereas the husband walks right on front of her, way ahead of her actually, and turns around and says :" Why are you walking so slow ?"

I feel like the husband now, and God is the wife, I know I know, but in this scenario, God is... I felt that I have neglected God way behind me, and I'd occasionally turn back and ask :" Where is He?"

Aren't we all sometimes like that? Instead of walking with God, we walk before Him to find our way, letting God carry everything for us, but not wanting to walk side by side with Him.

And here we are singing that oh so famous hymn which has been made famous once again among FCC-ians by Jon Tse, I Have Decided to Follow Jesus...

The world behind me, The cross before me...

Sure or not... Last time I checked, God was right behind you...

Therefore my friends, as we begin our season of Lent, let us slow down for awhile. Take it slow, and spend more time with God. I promise you it will be worth it. It always is. Temptation may come and go, but God will forevermore be there for us, so hold fast in your faith and never let go, cause God never will.

Oh, forgot to mention as well, when I mentioned giving up, I meant relationship wise.. And it's not really the giving up that you;re thinking about, I am giving it UP to the Lord... and for now, I am free.

Till next time, God bless guys !!!